Dreams
It’s so funny, what they say about pregnancy and weird dreams is true. I’ve had several very strange ones already so far (although I have been known to have some very strange dreams even without pregnancy, LOL).
Last night I had a dream that was kind of scary, like in an out-of-control way. I dreamed it was a rainy night, and my Mom and I were on one side of a very busy 4 or 5 line highway/road type thing, and our families were on the other side, waiting in the rain in their cars. I was on roller blades with no brakes (that’s how I used to do it in real life, too for some reason; I always removed my brakes) and I was zipping along all fast. My Mom was keeping up with me, and when we got to where we had to cross the busy road I was feeling so tense and scared, thinking if something were going to hit me, I couldn’t stop it and I couldn’t stop myself from the path I was on.
We made it across all the dark, rainy, busy lanes safely, thank God, but at some point along the way my roller blades turned into ice hockey blades. How it still worked on asphalt and pavement is a mystery, but dreams are strange, LOL. I was just thinking about it when I woke up, and realizing it is kind of like how life is in a way. When you’re an adult, you’re on the path you’ve chosen, and it may be out of control and dangerous and scary. Your parents can’t stop you from making your own decisions, but they can sure be with you every step of the way, and be there for you. It was comforting to have my Mom by my side in that dream, even though I knew she couldn’t control my possible collision course, either!
My parents have always been like that. Very supportive of my decisions and dreams in life. Always with me and standing with me 100% of the way. I’m so happy to have parents like them!
SIDE NOTE: I know this dream does not mean that I feel like I am making or have made rash decisions in my life, or that I’m on a collision course or anything. I have no regrets at all. I am absolutely so comfortable with my life…I love where I am and who I am with! I believe if it means anything at all, it just means I’m having the normal pregnancy jitters, and feeling a little out of control. After all, my body is doing a pre-programmed thing in a big way right now, and I have no control over it whatsoever! This baby is growing inside me, and it will come out when it’s ready…whether I’m ready or not, LOL!
I can’t wait to meet my daughter. I can’t wait to see what it feels like to be a mother. I have heard, and I know, that it’s just something you can’t truly describe. Josh and I will be in the club this June. Club Parenthood!